I want his love. I want him to want to be with me as much as I want to be with him. I want to be with him...it is hard though when everyone tells me that they don't like him..they think he is a jerk...he makes them feel stupid. I like him..yes sometimes he is a jerk...so am I...every now and then he will say something and I will be like huh? I don't feel totally stupid around him...

Why can't my friends be happy for me. I am with someon e who makes me feel happy. It does hurt when he has something to do and can't spend time with me. He does other things with me that most guys would be like uhg I don't want to go and that is that...He rubs my back for me even if I don't say it hurts. He comes up behind me and kind of hugs me. He is still iffy on the kissing in public (at school), but he does every now and then. Those little kisses make me happy. He asks me how I am if it looks like something may be wrong and if I say nothing...he drops it as if waiting untill I am ready to talk...

I want to spend lots of time with him later today...it is sunday now...I don't know if he will want to. I hope he does cuz I just want to lay in a bed or something and cuddle...or sit on a couch and cuddle. I want to kiss him as much as I want and him not pull away.

I am a girl who loves to have kisses and be held by her boyfriend. I am a girl who loves to spend a lot of time with her boyfriend. I would drop almost anything to spend time with my boyfriend. It seems to me like he wouldn't even drop a pen just to spend a day with me...well sometimes it seems like that. I want to stay with him, but I want to be with someone who I need to try and keep up with. Like he wants to cover me in kisses and hold me untill he has to let go. A guy who will drop anything just to come to my house for five minutes. It isn't all his fault though that he can't do things with me sometimes...he has school things to do and I understand that, but when he tells me he has stuff to do one minute and the next he is like "I don 't have anything to do" it is kinda like...you lied to me cuz you didn't want to spend time with me? or IDK why you lied to me, but it isn't cool.

I saw him today and I miss him...I am Brittaney...I don't miss a guy after not seeing him for a few hours, but I do..I miss him lots. I want to see his smile and his georgous eyes...his touch...I like the way he just kisses me sometimes...I mean I hint for it, but I never really expect him to do it. I always expect him to turn his cheek to me. When he does kiss me though I feel like I am floating...

I don't know what to do. I had someone tell me that I should break up with him and find someone different, but I don't want to and it would be really hard cuz I have a class with him.

I need to shut up...there is probably one person who will read this and actually care about what is going on...IDK what to do......Yes I do. I will stay with him and I will call him in the morning and ask him to come to my house and hang out with me...and I want to talk to him..

I am going to go and stop taking up your time...Hope all is good with everyone.

night night night night night.